It is just past 2:00 a.m. as I write this. My thoughts cannot help but turn to how infuriating life can be at times. It is simply unfair. I just got done feeding Baby Boy. That is what I will call our foster child, as I will never divulge his name on this blog.
I am angry with this precious child’s biological parents. They are missing out on seeing him develop and grow. Amanda and I have had Baby Boy for nearly two weeks. In that time he has become more aware of his surroundings, he has begun to show pieces of his personality, and he has brought us happiness.
As I look into this baby’s beautiful eyes it infuriates me that there are people who seem to have no struggle at all bearing children. Amanda and I are unable to have a baby of our own. So, why is it so easy for people who seemingly couldn’t care less about the children they bring into this world? It is unfair! It is painful to know that baby boy may go back to parents who lack the ability to provide the things that he needs. We want to be those people in his life.
In the time we have had this child, we have grown to love him as if he was our flesh and blood. He is a sweet baby who has given us a desire to learn all that we can to be the best parents for him, even if it is just for a short time.
It is so difficult to wish for Baby Boy to be reunited with his parents. We don’t know them, but it is heartbreaking to think that this child whom we love will be given back to parents who may not give him the same love and support he needs to grow into a healthy adult. Life is unfair, especially for this little boy who needs two parents to raise him in a loving, caring environment.
Ryan, my heart goes out to you and Amanda. I can understand the frustration, the anger, even perhaps the fear of what the future holds for all of you. And I counsel you to just continue to pour yourself and your love into Baby Boy. Not a bit of it will be wasted. I thank God, that He chose to place him with you, to give him a safe, secure, loving introduction to this world. I pray for you and for Baby Boy as you spend this precious time together, and I pray for his sweet life, that no matter what it holds, he will continue to be blessed and a blessing. Sending you my love and prayers…..
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You are expressing so many of the feelings I have felt over the years. Thanks
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